11.19.2007

the world vs. me, me vs. me

it seems people don't like who i am anymore, who I've become.

to be honest neither do i.

it seems I've changed noticeably.
i hear it at home.

i hear it at work.

i dont want to be how i am, im not happy it seems.

i dont know why exactly im not happy

it may be that i miss how everything was. everything was new, i didnt have to be serious about my life.

now i do, i have to work to pay this and that. it kind of sucks.

not that im lazy, although i am mostly, im just not feeling like im going to go anywhere in this life. i dont think ill be happy stuck at one profession, one job, one career.

i love to try new things.

i want to run my own business.
i want my own restaurant.

i want to go out at night and just have fun, not worry what anyone thinks or if ill be too tired at work.

i want to take trips.

how can you say you dont like what ive become, when i never knew who i was.


>the BE

1 comment:

S.Brucie said...

Brian you are always cool. I give you a hard time because that is what I do. I don't really know how you have changed other than drinking sometimes, but that isn't a really big deal.